Just One More

"Sink into the depths, this year" And that was what I said about last year. "Sink even further into the depths" I’m sure that’s what I’ll be saying about this year.

It’s a battle, an ongoing struggle to some goal. What goal? What am I trying to reach?

Clarity, as if gifted, was not destined for me. It glazes over, the mists descend, and in some deviated manner, I am blind.

In seeking, the sandman creeps  behind me, pins me to the ground. The demons gather at the fortress of consciousness They seek my death…drink from me and live forever

The poison rattles through my body

The pain is numbed and I cannot be.

Nothing.

I figured the battle was lost. I cared nothing for the way forward. I had no love for life. Then she came.

Dance of the fallen angels, The flashing lights of decadence In the volcano of self-persecution She waited.

She’d got there differently to me. "I’ll meet you on the way down." As the fallen, we gathered, we reminisced. The light flows through the clouds.

And there it began. The turbulent journey of the new. Shouldn’t that be good? She takes the poison from my soul, she purifies my blood, but she intoxicates my brain.

Hammering the natural way The love chokes me Everyday the fight goes on

Where am I? I know who, but what am I? The beast is within, the dark side We wrestle the future The storm is with us still

The year is not yet over, the Passover still to come. Maybe I can make it just one more day, maybe I can take it for just one more day.

Just one

Just one more.

Just one more and I’ll walk away.